He Says, She Says

She saw Ag at the bar counter at Chilli’s just now. She was tempted to walk in and sit beside him, but She decided against it.

She felt a bit funny.

She felt a tad cheated. Well, he did steal 3 kisses from Her on their first date!

She felt, “what a waste”.

She felt emo.

Then She thought of Evie. Is Evie gonna ‘cheat’ Her as well? There are a coupla things bothering Her where Evie is concerned. She wanted to write and ask him just now but She didn’t.

Ahhh…probably She’s so emo bcos of PMS…yes, blame it on the PMS!!! LOL…

On 20th October, at approximately 9am, She woke up, getting ready for work when She heard the newsreader on Light & Easy said something along this line, “…Datin Seri Endon…passed away this morning at 7.55am…” Gasping in Her heart, She was shocked. Did She hear correctly, She asked. Even though She just woke up, She knew She couldn’t be wrong bcos the newsreader DID continue the story about breast cancer and all.

Then, She continued getting ready for work.

Half an hour later, She found herself choking on Her tears. She couldn’t understand why bcos it’s not that She knew her personally or anything, but She found it a tad painful.

T’was a sad day indeed…

The First Lady must have been a wonderful lady bcos not only her family, friends and the whole nation mourn her demise, so did the sky…

May you rest in peace, datin…

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On Saturday, 22nd October, She watched a movie by Andy Lau - All About Love. Again, She found Herself choking on Her tears at the end of the movie although She tried very hard not to shed tears. Death & love - two very painful experiences, when “combined”, is beyond one’s imagination…

Dr. Ko was a practising doctor, a very busy one, mind you, and she, a cute wife. One night, she died in an accident. Her heart was donated to a lady. Fast forward a few years later, he’s now with the hospital’s ambulance unit. One day, he found an accident victim and felt something ’special’ about her.

Later he found out that she’s having his wife’s heart.

The lady is married but the hubby left her for Japan.

And the thing is, her days are numbered. She misses the husband alot AND it so happened that the husband looks exactly like Dr. Ko (what a coincidence!).

As expected, Dr. Ko played her husband. He entertained her and showered her with lotsa love. He made her feel special bcos he could “feel” his late wife’s heartbeat…She was very happy bcos everyday is a day of celebration. It could be Valentine’s Day, it could be Christmas, it could be Chinese New Year, and it could be April Fool’s Day on the day she purportedly had a heart attack…

She took him as her husband…or so we all thought…

Then her husband came back when he received the message from Dr. Ko. He came back just in time before she passed on.

A few days later, Dr. Ko received a diary from his dad-in-law written by her for him. The content is the one that Her choke on Her tears.

In the diary, she wrote that now, she’s writing on behalf of Dr. Ko’s late wife. Yes, she knew that he was not the husband. You see, his late wife loved to write diaries. Each time the husband couldn’t make it to their date, she’ll write it down. She also wrote down all the little little sweet things that conspired between her and the husband.

So, this lady wrote on behalf of Dr. Ko’s late wife. She ended it by saying, “Let me tell you again, I love You.” Mannnnn, that was the killer! That was the title of the movie in Chinese.

This movie served to remind Her and everyone - never take anyone for granted, more so the people whom you love and the people who love you.

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Today, 23rd October, a Sunday. She found that He asked a question in His blog which somewhat could be related to Her. He asked, “What do you think about flirting with an anonymous on the Internet?”

She was tempted to comment but in the end, She didn’t. She’ll just pen down her thoughts here, in Their space.

He thinks She’s annonymous??? She thought that after that few weeks of intimate communications, He could at least think of Her as a Friend. No??

But that’s not the point actually.

She thinks that the ‘limit’ is very subjective. What’s within the limit could be considered over the limit by another person, or in this case, by Him.

Yes, it’s good to know where not to cross the line but since the line is so subjective, how could anyone be 100% sure of “not crossing the line”? And if the line has been crossed, is it a bad thing altogether? Not necessary.

Because She has this notion - Things happen for a reason. Most of the time, we don’t know what the reason is until much later. Could be good. Could be bad.

What’s important is that we don’t have regrets. Nevertheless, we have to be responsible for all the things we do, and that includes bearing any consequences as a result of our actions.

She thinks that He’s afraid that there’s no turning back if He takes Their Relationship into the bedroom. She respects Him, His thoughts.

But still, He thinks of Her as annonymous???

Oh well…

It’s been a week since He ignored Her, since He got angry with Her. She missed chatting with Him, She missed His funny words, She missed sharing Her life with Him.

When will She let Him know of Their space? Something is stopping Her from telling Him but She doesn’t know what…Prolly in a few more days, She’ll let the cat out of the bag…

She went for buka puasa @ Palace of The Golden Horses tonight. She took some pics. She uploaded them a while ago. BUT…but she doesn’t know how to insert the images here!!! Aarrghhh!!! She’s frustrated alright!

But, She had a great time there. Ate like a pig and laughed like a hyena. LOL…

But…

But He’s still not talking to Her.

Oh well…She’ll probably give Him a few more days before She tells Him about Their Blog, Their One and Only Space.

She came online…

He was there…

She waited for Him…

Maybe He waited for Her too? She doesn’t know…She would like to know…

Either the Cold War has started…or it’s The End…

He ignored Her…again.

Today She found out that one of the lady bloggers she religiously read could actually be some psycho!!! She met up with her last Saturday because the blogger, Melmel, kononnya had SLE since 2 months back.

Today She found out from Evie that Melmel could actually be someone seeking attention from. In the beginning, She thought, couldn’t be because how could someone say that they have SLE…but later, Evie told Her lotsa things that contradict her blog because Evie knows a lot of people and those people whom Melmel know, Evie also have contacts with them…

In the beginning, She was shocked. Later in the day, She began to feel anger. She believed her and sympathised with her and she happily played Her on…right up till now. Tomorrow she’s supposed to go to Her office for some translation test and She’s unsure of how to treat that Melmel.

She felt so cheated by Melmel…She felt so stupid…She felt so naive…She felt so vulnerable…and summore that day, She paid for their lunch at Marche and Melmel didn’t try to insist on paying Her back because the bill came up to RM115. She didn’t mind paying for her actually but now that She knows she most probably is conjuring up stories, She’s terribly mad! Aarrgghhh!!!!

*sigh*…

And He is still ignoring Her…*double sigh*…

:(

She’s new to His blog, finds it interesting. One day, She tried to comment about some panty story but dang! couldn’t bcos She’s not a blogger. So, She wrote Him an e-mail.

That’s how it all started…

She’s in Her 30’s and still single & available. As She ‘ages’, She became hornier than ever but She ain’t getting enuff of it. She started reading blogs, and tried to find all M’sian xxx related blogs. She found a few and there was one where She felt, darn, She wants someone to do it just the way the Evie blogged.

She tried to befriend Evie and soon, tried to tempt him. In the end, he fell for Her and also lust for Her online, wanted to take Her and make hot, passionate love to Her. They were only waiting for a chance to be together.

But one fine day, She learnt something shocking!

She learnt that Evie is MARRIED! Yes, he’s got another decent blog elsewhere…oh, and how furious She became that night…

But in the end, She thought about it hard and thoroughly and said, “I’ll take the risk. I want him to be my lover.” And so, they continued as online lovers. They met and agreed that the chemistry’s perfect.

But She is still waiting for him to come take Her. But too bad, he couldn’t get away…

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So, She became friends with Him after the e-mail comment on the panty. It was funny…and come to think of it, things will always find a way to happen the way it happened.

Although He is 7 years younger than Her, She finds Him to be someone very likeable and attractive because He’s a smart chap, He’s humourous, He’s a fine guy. BUT…yes, there’s ALWAYS a BUT…

But he’s in a relationship…

Even in the beginning, He already told Her that He doesn’t like doing things which He feels will make Him uncomfortable. She understands perfectly but She being the Temptress that She is, She started to tempt Him.

She learns that His sexual satisfaction with His partner is lacking oomph. She taught Him a coupla ways where He could enhance His bed skills. She teased Him with pics of her lacy boylegs and babydolls. She teased Him through e-mails. She teased Him when they chat online. Both of Them enjoyed the Relationship.

Until one day, He told Her that He’s afraid to meet Her because He’s afraid that if They take the Relationship to bed, He’s afraid that He might get addicted and then there’d be no turning back.

She understands how He feels. She didn’t tease Him as a joke. It’s just Her nature to do what She did. She doesn’t know at all if She sees Him, what would happen, whether would She allow things to get to the next level, She simply doesn’t know.

But He is reluctant to see Her because He is unsure of Himself because He says that He’s just a man on the street and could probably find it difficult to resist the temptation. He says He’s reluctant to see Her because He wants to protect His relationship with His partner + His Relationship with Her.

She finds it a joke - He wants to protect HIS relationship with HIS partner AND HIS Relationship with Her?? So She hinted that He’s like all men, He’s selfish.

Somehow, He agreed and said that He’s a selfish bastardo. Hmmm…

All in all, this situation is pretty blur…and looks like They are in a ‘cooling period’…neither She nor Him is saying anything, yet. And somehow, He’s now angry at Her because He said that He has taken the situation more serious than She did. *sigh* She doesn’t really know why. She’s as serious as She sounds when She teases Him, but at the same time, She always have to keep a mental note that He’s not available…So, She’s actually confused Herself at times because in actual fact, She knows where not to cross the line but at times, She’ll have this thought, “Heck care! Whatever will be, will be.”

Today, She spent 3/4 of the day thinking of Him and Their situation. She finished a pack of ciggies in 2 hours. She’s trying to find a way to keep things intact because somehow, She thinks that She needs Him. She needs Him to help Her keep in check with reality where Evie is concerned. She needs to pick His smart brains. She needs Him to share things with Her which she can’t do with anyone else. She needs Him because there is something special about Him which She is unable to put it in words…She just feels it inside Her.

So, that’s why She’s starting this blog. For Her to continue share Her life with Him. And if possible, vice versa. They have actually agreed to start a blog together a coupla days earlier before the “fight”. So, She’s taken the liberty to start this…

And tonight, He ‘ignored’ Her…

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If this situation is assessed by a 3rd party, it would seem so…so…so…dumb because in reality, nothing has happened…yet.

She’s trying to keep things the way it is. This is probably one of the ways she could do. She had some kinda argument with Him last night. She doesn’t know what He wants. And perhaps He isn’t sure of what He wants.

But She’s gonna try to keep the flame burning and eventhough if Her effort is still futile, She’ll still keep this space, Their space…